thats the best way isnt it?

I feel bad for ditching you

I’ve fall in love twice and been through a relationship once that I end up crawling away from, bruised and yadayada. And along the path I broke many hearts, and shattered dreams. So, its not easy for me to let anyone in esp you. Im sorry I dont fall with a guy who always say sweet words and promises where in fact, their promises are nothing. Meaningless. I don’t need a relationship where we argue and then make love after that everyday. Not a roller coaster ride, not declarations of love and poems and flowers everyday, not romance every hour. Just a simple faith in each other and the constant strive to improve the relationship, knowing when to step back and when to push forward. A tango if you will. My life is so messed up. So I need somebody who understands what having your own space and privacy means, and somebody who knows what respect and honor still means. Somebody who is responsible for his every action and knows not to blame others when things go wrong. Somebody who can guide me to the right path. But for the time being, im not ready to be in a relationship. I dont want to try it. I am phobic of people who create drama out of thin air. Alaaahhh biasalaaa kan bila dah bercinta? pftttt-.-" oraitsss enuff.

ps; im too sad with my current health condition